Do I still need to be calm?

Let's make this as quick as possible. Here's my point, don't you ever tell me that I've changed, why? Because you're the first one who showed me that you have changed. I just followed up because of it. Now if you want complete silence, then it's up to you. I am the silent type, to begin with anyways.

To hell with everything

I've been told by someone, that when it comes to these kinds of situations, I should just let it go. But I can't. So instead, I'll just blog about it.

This is probably the most difficult question for every human; "What is your purpose in life?". Of course, the answer would be something that the person is doing, or something that inspires the person. My answer would be, something that I can live and die for. That is my purpose. Right now, I've found it, but it doesn't seem like it wants me.

If you want to ask what it is, then I'll be frank, love. The feeling that can't be explained by any logic or any scientific theory. My current purpose in life is to love this person to the fullest, but it seems like this person doesn't feel like giving me the equal feeling. It seems like this person doesn't really love me, or sad to say, doesn't want me to be with her. I've tried almost everything, I've sacrificed almost everything, and yet, she still doesn't see that sacrifice. All I want is for her to notice what I'm doing for her. If she wants me to stop, then I'll stop, if she wants me to continue, then I'll continue. But if this keeps up, I might break down for the first time in my life.

I love this person to the fullest, that I'm about to give everything that I have and learned in my life. I wish she could read this, and I wish she could hear me out. This would be the first and the last time that I would be selfish, that's why, please heed me. I need your comfort, I need your support, I need YOU. If I could just re-do everything, then I would've done it. If I have a chance to correct my mistakes, then I'll do it. But if that's not enough, it would only mean that I'm not enough. That would be the time that I would let go, completely.

You know who you are. And I want you to know, that I'm right here, waiting, hanging, and sacrificing, just to know the answer to this question. Can I take back what's rightfully mine? Or is it taken away from me, completely.

Please, heed me.

Update

I have temporarily removed the Pizza Lobby, due to some shitty people who trash-talks me and doesn't want to face me up front.

With that said, I'll do some temporary maintenance in this blog.

Stop the lie, tell the truth

Upon the investigation of yours truly, I found out that there are some people who are screwing within Exoduz and within my life. The start of the investigation occurred last December, and it continued until Febuary.

It is stated that there are desperate members in the said community and therefore, they are proven guilty of their actions.

One of the evidences is in Facebook. That suspect have two accounts, one is the main account and the other one is connected to me. The person with its accompaniments didn't say or rather tell the truth. Even with the evidence thrown at them, they still denied it. The second evidence is the communication. Here's a question for all of you, who the hell would go to a very far place without bringing a cellphone or any type of gadget that can be used as a communication? No one right? Not even my younger sister, who's just 15 years old, can live with it. Third evidence is the continuous lack of communication for almost a month, saying that the suspect lent its cellphone, again. Fourth evidence is the unfinished condition; that is to change the suspect's Facebook profile to its real profile information. The suspect did change the information, but didn't put its real name in the said account. The suspect also said that "I don't really change or put my real name in any of these kinds of websites". But hey! The suspect have another account with its full information, the real name and some pictures in it, so why can't the suspect change the other account, that's connected in my account? The last evidence was exposed by a witness, saying that everything that the suspect said is a lie, together with its accompaniments. The witness also connected everything that's happening in the above mentioned. That witness is a well trusted friend of mine, that's why I believe in everything that the witness said.

From there, I deleted my communication with the suspect and it's accompaniments in Facebook, Y!M and in my cellphone number. With this, one of the accompaniments left the Family/Club in Audition Online. With that action, I therefore conclude that they are guilty of what they did.

Knowing this, I would like to inform you, readers of my blog, to watch out for those people. They might strike at you next.

The lesson learned in this experience is, never take a promise lightly. Because all promises are half-meant to be broken.

That is all, and thank you for reading.

The new surname

After seeing many people in the gaming world that's using my surname which is Takarai. I have decided to change, or rather, revert back to my first gaming surname.

I therefore announce to everyone who's reading my blog, that my new surname is, Moriandthor. Thus, my new gaming name is Truze/Traze Moriandthor.

That is all =D.

The unexpected

Let me get straight to the point.

After living in this world for 24 years and some months, I am currently experiencing something very weird. This experience is so unexplainable, even with the combination of logic and deduction. This weird experience is bugging me since January 24, 2010.

But anyways, I can solve this, I can do this! God knows what should I do. LOL.

Well, nothing much about this article. Just letting out the words in my head.

The difference!

Well, let's start! I've noticed something very very different upon playing AuditionSEA and AuditionPH's Beat Up mode. The difference is, the rhythm.

Okay, let me explain. Why rhythm? Try playing both servers and in the same game mode. You'll notice that, you can hit the perfect more accurately in AuditionSEA than in AuditionPH. That's why, almost all of my high-perfect-hit records can be seen in AuditionSEA.

I noticed this while playing the song Come To Me by Cherry Filter. Upon playing the said song in the said game mode, I noticed that I can hit the perfect very accurately. Then, when I played AuditionPH, I noticed that the perfect hits went down like hell. From 650+ perfect hits in AuditionSEA, it went down to 604 perfect hits in AuditionPH. It only states that, the accuracy of the game is mostly determined in AuditionSEA than in AuditionPH.

Take note that I'm not discriminating our very own server. I'm just stating out what I experienced and what I am experiencing. Also, the difference between the two servers and its game mode, which is Beat Up.

I therefore conclude that, in Beat Up mode, a player can gain more perfect hits in AuditionSEA than in AuditionPH. At the same time, AuditionPH have an advantage over AuditionSEA. Even though a player can gain more perfect hits in AuditionSEA, doesn't mean that he/she can gain more scores in the end. The connection between AuditionSEA and our country is a little bit off, that's why there is a slight delay in scoring. I only noticed this in Beat Up mode, haven't tested it on other modes. That's why, I also conclude that, you can gain a higher score in AuditionPH than in AuditionSEA, all because of the connection.Well, that's it! My very own observation between the two servers. I don't know if this is accurate or whatever. Feel free to post a comment in the Pizza Lobby.

Thank you for reading this stupid, pathetic, boring, and less-informative blog.

The new year?

HELLO 2010! Year of the whatever Chinese year this is.

So, how do I put it, AHH YES! What would be good for this year? I don't know! It's up to you (whoever you are that's reading my blog).

Some may say, this year's gonna be the busiest year ever, while some say they'll stay what they are. Others say they'll change, and others say this year will be the same. Nonsense actually, but anyways! I plan on changing myself for this year. Just to see what will happen in my life, and also to experience different things. What I mean by that is, not just the games I play, but also the people that surrounds me. I'll try to develop myself to their liking and at the same time, try to cope up with them, knowing what they want and what they don't want.

A message to Exoduz;
My dear family, I will promise you guys to give my full service, despite my busy schedule, I'll try to think of a way to establish a more profound and strong relationship with you and with each other. May this be a peaceful year for us.

A message to EVERYONE;
All of you! Do what you want, I don't care, LOL kidding. Just stay what you are, the way people liked you, the way how your image goes to them and the way you commit yourself to the people around you.

Again! Happy New Year!

PS.
I will continue posting game guides and love-life guides (whatever that is) in this blog. So feel free to request something by posting the said request on the chat box right over there. ------>

This is your Assassin, yea, this is your Assassin. That is all, and thank you for reading this boring blog.