New direction!

Currently, I'm working as an Encoder (sales) in a salon (but I work at the Head Office, not on the salon itself).

Heading my life to a new direction, as a professional. Though, I don't want to go above my minimum wage, because I don't want to pay tax in this corrupted government (yes, I'm evil. Bite me!).

Anyways, I'm moving on towards a new life and I'm going to continue on living like this. Working for myself and helping my parents so that we can live a better life.

In short, I'm currently moving to the stage of a "working professional".

Please give me your support, my blog readers. Thank you! ;)

Do I still need to be calm?

Let's make this as quick as possible. Here's my point, don't you ever tell me that I've changed, why? Because you're the first one who showed me that you have changed. I just followed up because of it. Now if you want complete silence, then it's up to you. I am the silent type, to begin with anyways.

To hell with everything

I've been told by someone, that when it comes to these kinds of situations, I should just let it go. But I can't. So instead, I'll just blog about it.

This is probably the most difficult question for every human; "What is your purpose in life?". Of course, the answer would be something that the person is doing, or something that inspires the person. My answer would be, something that I can live and die for. That is my purpose. Right now, I've found it, but it doesn't seem like it wants me.

If you want to ask what it is, then I'll be frank, love. The feeling that can't be explained by any logic or any scientific theory. My current purpose in life is to love this person to the fullest, but it seems like this person doesn't feel like giving me the equal feeling. It seems like this person doesn't really love me, or sad to say, doesn't want me to be with her. I've tried almost everything, I've sacrificed almost everything, and yet, she still doesn't see that sacrifice. All I want is for her to notice what I'm doing for her. If she wants me to stop, then I'll stop, if she wants me to continue, then I'll continue. But if this keeps up, I might break down for the first time in my life.

I love this person to the fullest, that I'm about to give everything that I have and learned in my life. I wish she could read this, and I wish she could hear me out. This would be the first and the last time that I would be selfish, that's why, please heed me. I need your comfort, I need your support, I need YOU. If I could just re-do everything, then I would've done it. If I have a chance to correct my mistakes, then I'll do it. But if that's not enough, it would only mean that I'm not enough. That would be the time that I would let go, completely.

You know who you are. And I want you to know, that I'm right here, waiting, hanging, and sacrificing, just to know the answer to this question. Can I take back what's rightfully mine? Or is it taken away from me, completely.

Please, heed me.

Update

I have temporarily removed the Pizza Lobby, due to some shitty people who trash-talks me and doesn't want to face me up front.

With that said, I'll do some temporary maintenance in this blog.